my computer died yesterday - never seen any problem this bad yet. the cpu makes funny beeping noises and nothing shows up on the screen at all - even though the monitor is obviously on.strangely enough, i still an odd sense of detachment this time round. usually i'd be jumping around going absolutely bonkers that all my material, files and so on have been lost. it's still bad this time of course;ever since my cd-r writer died more than a year plus back i havent been able to back up anything in the desktop. which means i'm liable to lose possibly all/most of my thesis work, the latest submissions to a journal sent in by my prof,telephone lists, all my internet bookmarks - including practically all the links to my friends' various blogs, my random thoughts lists - noting down all the books and cds and movies and information gleaned from everyone i've met in the past few years. and of course my mp3s.

but as i said, i feel far-removed from these. maybe it's a minor numbness coming over me, just like how one would feel when everything you've had - everything that defines your identity, who you are, where you've been, what you've done - is lost in a sudden fire.i'm sure somewhere in the wreckage there'll be one or two items that i'd have forgotten i had, and would be sorry to know that they're gone. for the moment, i'm just clinging on to the slight consolation that all my photos are kept on my laptop - and the burner on that is working.