when does zi4 zhun1 become zi4 wo3?
i see my life is being driven by two goals: to find peace with myself and to live in harmony with everything around me; and to continually strive for excellence, challenging myself to reach heights attainable by others or attained by others, not to beat them per se, but as a test and a yardstick by which to measure myself. but recently i've come to question that - am i doing that for self-pride? or for true advancement? and for what purpose, at the end of the day?

bought a book - what should i do with my life, by po bronson - yesterday. in the introduction, the author makes a comment which i think has a lot of meaning:

"i became intrigued by people who had unearthed their true calling, or at least those who were willing to try. those who fought with the seduction of money, intensity and novelty, but overcame their allure."

i wonder. have i fought and won against these?