listening to: julio iglesias - vincent (starry starry night)
weather: dry and cool in the room; thunder rolling in the night sky

had one of those subtle paradigm changes over the weekend; i've started feeling i Can be in control of things again, that there's time enough to do everything i want to so long as i spend every single moment the best way i can, and that i can enjoy myself - all at the same time.

this change is probably due to the incredible load lifted off my back with the thesis presentation over. the presentation was more symbolic than anything else of course, but it marked two things: i'm committed to finishing this course, and it was a sign-post of sorts to myself. the other event that caused this slight change in perspective was meeting my cousin and her fiancé during a family dinner over the weekend. adulthood is finally here, as i officially become the next in line to get married (of course this is debatable, since i've always been the eldest in my generation of my extended family, still..).

dinner with joyce at holland v on monday night; pizza, thai food, and dessert at nydc. have never been so stuffed in a long, long time. diet went out the window. weighed in at 66kg today though - down 4 kgs from 3 weeks back - but then again, fat is lighter than muscles...

spent the better part of the evening trying out my pilot on myself. prof has been great as usual, doing the programming... will get him to pass some manuals or texts on this sometime if im free to figure things out.

T is still adamant on his decision to quit school, although he mentioned today that he's taking this week off and would make a firm decision coming monday. we shall see how it pans out then i guess...

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starry starry night
paint your palette blue and grey
look out on a summer's day
with eyes that know the darkness in my soul

shadows on the hills
sketch the trees and the daffodils
catch the breeze and the winter chills
in colors on the snomy linen land