Listening to: Hei Bao - Don't Break My Heart

Things I Learnt Today - Mon 4th February
Tea is acidic. Milk is acidic (supposedly). Certain people are allergic to coffee. Never argue with a Hwa Chong girl.
Oh wait, I just never learnt that last lesson properly... =p

Sensation And Perception - Tue 5th February
Stayed out late for the 5th day in a row. Mum is not pleased. Had a reason though... had dinner with Joyce at Bt Batok - why do my friends all stay at the far ends of the earth? - then Malcolm jio-ed me out, sat around Boat Quay and later, One Fullerton together Samy, Malcolm's cousin and Mui Kee chatting. I've always thought that MK would make a nice friend, and I guess she probably does, practical and down-to-earth enough and a good listening ear.. but circumstances dictate otherwise. As we agreed in the cab on the way home, if not for the fact that Malcolm came back, we'd probably never see each in our lives again, and even if it did, it'll be one of those 'hi' and 'bye' things...

Led me to think that life is really a series of chance meetings and the story of how we made out those meetings... I was thinking... if a year and a half ago, I didn't go back into the matric maze, I would never have joined mentoring... and the story of my university life would have turned out oh so differently...

More quasi-philosophical ramblings...
What transpired today at that gathering gave me pause to think... perhaps the reason for all my failed relationships lies with me... a possibility that was ever there and thought of... but left aside at many times 'cos I just couldn't think of a reason why... all I ever wanted to do was to be the best I could ever be... but right now I feel like Martin Luther, suffering from a lifetime of anguish over unattainable divine forgiveness... when would that heavenly light shine and open my eyes to a true understanding of what this unexplainable thing called 'Love' is...