song: nothing's gonna stop us now - starship

thought experiment

almost all my books are off the shelves and packed into boxes now,
and the room suddenly looks so much emptier.
i have a sudden feeling of nakedness.

the thought runs through my head that,
maybe lots of times i've been so focused on collecting things,
or on ordering them nicely,
that it's clouded my mind to the experience of owning those things in the first place
(e.g. reading those books).

i used to practice this recurring deja-vu type of thought:
i'd look at an ordinary everyday object (say, a traffic light) and stare intently at it,
again and again and again.
and with each subsequent look, the reality of that object becomes more and more intense,
until i'd reach a point where the realization that I - me - myself,
am living in this very moment, at this very spot, taking in that object.
and am not in a hazy dream-like state.
and my mortality becomes clear to me as well.

time to re-live and re-experience life again.

...........
let them say we're crazy
i don't care about that
put your hand in my hand baby
don't you ever look back
let the world around us just fall apart
baby we can make it if we're heart to heart...