Listening to: Why - 3T feat. Michael Jackson

I've stagnated over the past 3 years, maybe 4. I know not when it started. Maybe it was the time when I wore green, and had to move around in mindless places for over 2 years. Origins are important, if only because knowing them is a first step towards initiating change. It doesn't seem important right now though; time washes by me, like water slips past an immobile rock in a furious river. I have become ambitionless, angsty, clinging one to memories old and sometimes false, of forgotten hopes and useless dreams. Origins can wait.

I dreamt last night, of simpler days. The world seemed a bit brighter then, more in focus. Maybe it was simply because I paid more attention to things around me in the past, though even now some part of me reminds me that I didn't pay much heed to anything even in times long gone. But Life rushes by me now and I barely lift an eyelid - simply because the scenes just play themselves out in front of me and are forgotten in a split second. It's worse now then - once I didn't bother, now I can't. My memory is gone, language too; names and words do not come easily to me now. Friends' birthdays, once remembered so well, go past, and I send belated greetings now - if I realize it.

I woke up yesterday morning, and couldn't read the clock. Not because my vision was blurred, just that I couldn't read it. I paused there - not even knowing I paused till some time after - and looked at it again. A few seconds passed before 3.30pm swam into my mind. A few moments later, it said 8.15am. I went back to sleep.

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Why does Monday come before Tuesday ?
Why do summers start in June ?
Why do winters come too soon ?
Why do people fall in love,
When they`re always breaking up ?
Oh why ?
Why do we love if love will die ?
Why does Wednesday come after Tuesday ?
Why do flowers come in May ?
Why does springtime go away ?