Listening to: Elva Xiao - Zui4 Shu2 Xi1 De4 Mo4 Sheng1 Ren2

I have become a stranger to myself
I dislike, with a fierce intensity, people who give up and continually groan about their plight and troubles. Well. That's not exactly true, it's not the people themselves, but the way in which they approach life. *laughs* And I have become that sort of person these past months - the irony of it all. In fact, I feel worse, a sense of dread and helplessness mixed with a strange sense of forboding... as though the Fates themselves had decided to play dice with my life, passing their single eye amongst themselves and cackling evilly. My life, spinning out of control.

Case in hand: I just can't over the fact that LN just won't speak to me every time we meet. Yah. Bumped into her again. She talked to Ah Boy and BK of course. People always say it's the awkwardness and time will heal all hurt... or is it just me, refusing to let go of the past and embracing reality? I'm becoming more confused and unsure of myself.

Of course, perhaps it would be so much easier if I just went with the flow... much good that has done me. Flashback to one year ago...

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bB: I never did figure out what you meant by sending me a mail that day... bo leh...